My first sketch when i was in10th class. After that i made so many sketches but they were not good enough to share.

FREAKS!!!!!!

One day I was sitting with a 5 years old girl and was checking pictures of my cousin's twins. Suddenly the little girl asked me "ye 2 kese hogye?".....I started thinking what to say...I replied with an embarrassing smile "pata nahi". Then she asked "nai apko pata hai kuk ap pregnant ho"...


OH MY GOD!!!! Now I really wanted to say something because my embarrassment reached to its peak. Come on yar! I even don't have a love affair so how....you know what I mean. I knew that what kind of star plus dramas she watches with her family so I dint say anything.


I still don’t get that where we are going. As we have no source of entertainment because of Lollywood flop films so our nation turned its attention towards Bollywood movies. Whatever they are showing is even not related to their culture. After watching “Dostana” first thing came in my mind “What the hell is this?” Giving knowledge to people about “gay rights” is good but giving the message that if you are a gay, you can do anything??? What is this? It freaks me out!!!

After Dostana I dint watch any Indian movie (don’t know the reason, I think I dint want to). One day, I was listening songs of “Anjaana anjaani”, I thought that I should give it a chance but after watching it, I realized that I have wasted my time. It seemed that the work had done by freaks.No solid plot, again the gays were highlighted in some scenes, poor jokes, fake emotions and they failed to prove the valid reasons behind the suicide trials of Kiara and Akhshay. I think now Indian movies are commonly showing the “Gay” thing, really couldn’t understand why? One thing which I have noticed that they show people living before marriage as this is no matter for them. According to my teacher, “what kind of message they are giving to the viewers, as living together without any relation is right? They don’t need a legal relationship…????”


Useless script, emotionless acting, cheap songs and nothing new in Indian movies, even I don’t find them romantic enough, couldn’t find the chemistry between actors which we can find in old Indian and Pakistani movies (at least they were more romantic). I have also found that children are more interested in star plus dramas and movies than cartoons. As one of the child confessed after the channels were banned “jab mere papa chale jate hain tu hum internet pe Indian drama dekhte hain.”

“Humor has some limits. Bedroom and bathroom jokes are beyond the limits of humor.” (My teacher told this in creative writing class). But these jokes are common in Indian movies. I am more concerned about children who are learning these things and now they are saying inappropriate things very spontaneously.


I got another shock when I saw a 4 year old boy singing “jee karda wai jee karda tenu kol bethawan jee karda, jee karda wai jee karda tenu jotian lawan jee karda”. It was funny though but the second thought came in my mind is that “the lyrics are disgusting”. Another cheap song is “Amplifier” by Imran which has no sense, I just hate it "buffer tu meri, mein tera amplifier" and again it is also very common among children.

munni badnaam hui

Another hit one is "munni badnaam hui darling tere liye",,lolzzz. Unfortunately this is the cheapest one nowadays and is more popular. News channels are also making VMs of this song on politicians. The question is that "who is munni?" and "why she is badnaam?" and "what s the use of these stupid lyrics?".What kind of message they are giving to the viewers?, If it is for entertainment then sorry to say that it is a very low-priced entertainment same like we can find in Pakistani theaters.

My Best Man!!!

Those were the dark days and lonely nights. Fear, hopelessness and alarming situations caught me for at least one week. I started realizing that my life is nothing without him. That one week was like I am walking on thorns. Tears were in my eyes almost all the time. It was like someone took my breath away from me. Only i can understand in what pathetic condition i was.Now i have realized that I am helpless without him, I even cant do a single thing alone.  He is my confidence, he is my courage, he is my friend and HE IS MY BEST MAN!!......


I went to meet him in hospital. When I entered to his room, I could not believe that it was him. He was looking so weak. Suddenly he asked me (with a smile): "Cheena, what happened to me?". Tears were in my eyes and I somehow tried to control myself but I failed to do it. He was in continuous pain and I could not see that. He was not complaining about his pain and it was the worst thing for me. I went back to home after 4 hours with a broken heart. At night, I was trying to sleep but it was far away from me. I was thinking about him and then I started crying and sobbing but no one was there to stop me. His fresh face was in front of me because he is always active and supporting but now he was in a helpless condition and I saw tears in his eyes because of dependency on others.


The other day, I got to know that his platelet count dropped down and he immediately needs platelets. His first dose didn't help him and all the platelets got damaged. The doctor was not satisfied with his performance and said that his body had to produce platelets itself otherwise it would be dangerous. I felt like killing myself because it hurts a lot.....I was afraid...It was like someone snatched my happiness. Home was incomplete without him and there was a dead silence in my home which was irritating me. I had no one to whom I can talk or share my things.


Next day, he got another dose in morning and finally I got a good news  His body started making platelets which dropped down due to Dengue. Allah gave him a new life and I am thankful to Him. It was really really very hopeful situation for me. I was very happy that day.


Now he is fine and enjoying with us at home. My DAD...My Best Man is with me..:) Now I can fight with him and we can do stupid discussions (normally these discussions have no sense at all). And also I can act like a baby in front of him because he loves it and i love it too,,:) I LOVE HIM more than anything else. Love you Dad and I always want you to be with me, my life was hell without you.

GREAT EXPECTATIONS!!!!

Mostly we hear these words from most of the people “I didn’t expect it from you”, “muje umeed nai thi ke tum aisa karoge mere saath”, “menu tere naalon ae umeed nai se”,"Non l'ho mai attendono da voi" etc.

Expectations, expectations, expectations………expectations of parents, expectations of children, expectations of teachers, expectations of friends, expectations of husband or wife, expectations of lovers, expectations of politicians, expectations of nation, etc. if I am not wrong these expectations start before our birth. Some parents expect that their first child should be a boy…some expect that there child will have good looks…some expect that there child will do this this this this in his/her life.

Now after birth there is a list of expectations which never ends till death.

Expectations of parents: “our children will choose the career of our choice and if we will say that we have chosen a girl/guy for you, the child will say jesa aap kahen (o yes, I will).” (Never think that maybe they want something else).

Expectation of a mother: “my son will hand-over his first pay to me.” (Never thinks about the things which her son wants to buy from his first pay).

Expectation of a house-wife that maid would come and help her because she has a get together in her house. But maid didn’t come. “baji me bemaar thi”,”baji muje beti ko haspatal” (hospital) leke jana tha”.

Expectation of a lover (girl) that one day he will also loves me, all the time waiting for his comments on each and everything related to her life. But he got married to another girl.

Expectation of a lover (boy): “she loves me and will always support me.” But she couldn’t raise her voice and married someone else.

Expectation of a mother-in-law that her “bahu” will handle all home chores. She expects that bahuu will do whatever she wants. “tumne mere bête pe taweez kia hai,wo bhi tmhari zubaan bolta hai.”

Expectation of a girl that one day a prince will come for her. (huhhh life is not like a Barbie series)

Expectation of a boy that he can easily flattered all girls. (Huh fantasy!!!)

Expectation of a teacher that whatever he/she is delivering, students will get everything (even if they are not speaking).

Expectation of a student: “I hope I will get good marks”, “Allah mian is baar pass karade, ainda shoro se parhonga.” (And this “shoro” will never come.)

Expectation of a friend: “my friend will never hurt me” (even is he/she is hurting his/her friend and he/she never realizes the fact).

Expectation of a fiancé that her fiancée is wearing scarf when she goes out. But she only wears scarf when she meets her. (they both need to clear things)

Expectation of a wife: “my husband will always love me like Sujal, will always take care of me like Maan, will do anything for me like Mayank and will be always after me like Samrat.” (Come on, life is not a novel/drama, so be real).

Expectation of a husband: “my wife is just mine and will do whatever I say.” (Excuse me, she is not a robot”

I EXPECT MORE! I EXPECT MORE! I EXPECT MORE!

Everyone must be fed up with this line "i expect more."

Above mentioned are very few expectations. We still can find more. The problem is that we expect so much from others. What can we do? After all we are humans! In our whole life we just try to fulfill the expectations of others. We just try to make others happy but at that time we forget one thing that people will never be pleased with all your efforts even if you offer them your precious life.

Sometimes, while walking, we just stopped for a moment, with the tears in our eyes, we say: “What about me? What about my life? What about my expectations?” This is the time when we feel that we are just completely shattered but we can’t find anyone to hold us or to fulfill our expectations. This is life! And do remember “EXPECTATION ALWAYS HURTS.”

Dedicated to a special person who is also a victim of expectation...i hope she will read this.

attitude matters

Sometimes I think that people show attitude to those who have nothing in common. In four years of my university life, I have realized that teachers have some big problem. I couldn’t understand that why they show attitude to us even we have nothing in common. We know that they are senior to us and they know more so how can we compare ourselves with them. We just want to learn what they have. For example, one of my teachers has a different kind of attitude. He had faced a very difficult life and he always keeps the distance from students. In his class, I learned “fear”. I am always afraid of his sarcastic remarks which he passes on every student and psychologically speaking this fear hinders my learning. His difficulties in life were not because of us so why he always pretend that he knows more!!!!! Now I don’t want to attend his class because I can’t produce better even if I try my best.

The other thing which I noticed that teachers want everyone to get everything quickly (they don’t like to repeat things). Every student has a different caliber, no one is equal. Some gets quickly and some needs more explanation. We are here to learn things, if we know it before then why we bothered to come here? Teachers should know that all students dint come from the same background. Every person needs attention. Otherwise ignorance will cause the psychological problems which will affect the learning and students will think that they can’t compete with others. So attitude matters a lot! 

THE PRINCESS WORLD, EL LIBERANTO DEL FAUNO

The Oscar winning Spanish movie, El Liberanto Del Fauno (Pan’s Labyrinth) is highly imaginative, creative and an artistic piece. It is more like the Alice in the wonderland for grown-ups. It is the mixture of horrors of the real and fantasy world, both at the same time. It can easily lead the viewers to a spellbinding experience which they can never forget.  The story revolves around a little girl, Ofelia, who actually lives in her imaginary world which is full of nightmarish creatures. She travels to live with her mother’s new husband, the fascist captain Vidal, in a rural area of Spain.

The movie perfectly portrays the era after Civil War, when fascism was on its peak. Vidal is engaged ruthlessly in finishing the guerilla group, hidden in the nearby forest. His head housemaid and a doctor are secretly helping the guerilla group and Ofelia (knows the reality of Vidal) draws her attention to the fairytale imagination so that she can ignore the violent behavior of Vidal.

Ofelia follows a locust-fairy and finds an ancient labyrinth which is outside the border. She meets a forest spirit Pan, who gives her three tasks to fulfill involving a giant greedy toad, the terrifying pale man (who holds his eyes in the palms of his hands) and the shedding of innocent blood so she can rightfully claim the throne, being the re-incarnation of an ancient princess. On every step there is a breathtaking suspense and you can never guess about what will happen next? The adventures of Ofelia which she faces with bravery and courage are really very horrifying but it catches your attention throughout the movie.

Pan’s Labyrinth has terror, astonishment, disgust, fiction, wonder, shock, and hope. The awe-inspiring makeup, appearances or sketching of characters is just great. It is highly recommendable to both young and old who likes fantasy.